Monday, August 16, 2010

Amnesiac

i just realized after my 5k today how easy it was for me to forget that i got into running as part of my recovery from the mild stroke i had two years ago. when i first started running, it was easy to get up and put my runners on. nothing like a life and death situation to spur me on. but as i recovered and my old routine crept back in, the fact that i had a stroke slipped further from my mind. the excuses came up. work that needed to be done, social obligations that needed to be met, other activities that pulled me in. running took a step back. soon, i was no longer waking up at the crack of dawn to sneak in a run before the sun rose.

the inactivity took a toll on me. i was sluggish. i had no energy for anything beyond waking up and going to work. and the stress that put me on that hospital bed two years ago was suddenly upon me again. i was sad all the time. i knew something was wrong when i couldn't shake off the feeling of despair that plagued me. sounds melodramatic, i know, but for some reason, i was becoming this ugly, temperamental, sad chick who wanted nothing but to wallow in self pity and food. hence the ten pounds. in my drama, i forgot how running brought me a sense of balance i have never known before.

i know at some point i have to address these issues that bring on the blues. but while i work things out for myself, one thing is certain: i have to keep running. not just to get healthier physically, but also emotionally. i need that balance. i need that clarity that has been missing since i shoved my runners under my bed. 

hopefully, this time, i'll no longer forget the whys of my running. it's more than just getting out and working up a good sweat. it's beyond joining a fad. it's more spiritual than i would like to admit. i'm not just running to get fit, i'm running to save my sanity.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Whew

Woke up to the sun shining so i took it as a sign to haul my ass to u.p. For a quick run. I've actually been dreading this run because i know it would kill me from either exhaustion or shame. I have never been more out of shape. Aside from the ten pounds i put on the past year, i havent really been serious about my running. Sure there's the sporadic gym run every now and then, but it's shameful how from inching my way to my first 15k last year, i am now back to huffing and puffing towards the 5k mark. I am hanging my head in shame...

But as i said, the sun is out and i had my ipod with me. It feels good to be out and running, dragging my fat bum around the university oval. I've missed the familiar aches in my shins, the therapeutic numbing of my mind. It's just me and the road ahead. It couldn't have been a better time, too.

I wont be making promises this time. No time frames for the next 10k or the next race. This time i will just run, like forrest did. And there will be days when i will just walk, too. Heck there would be days when i would be stubborn enough to just stay under the covers and forget i ever took joy in running. But i am hoping against hope those days would be few and far between. I seek the clarity i get from running.

I'm almost done with my coffee here at starbucks. Had to give my legs a rest. Time to limp home and enjoy a nice long hot shower and maybe smile a little bit, thinking hey, i did it. I got off my bum and ran today. Have a blessed sunday everyone!

Sent from my Nokia phone

Monday, March 8, 2010

F(a)tness Trail

i have not been running for the past couple of months. this is the reason i have been sporting the unsightly muffin top. it is also the reason i decided to haul ass and start moving sunday morning. i got up earlier than usual and decided to take my camera along my walk. i knew there was no hjope i'd be able tyo run decently anyway, so i took the easy way out and walked for about two and a half hours. i also decided to take an unusual route. here are pics from my walk:

yes, i go up this hill whenever i want to get out of the house.
nothing like a clear blue sky and the smell of the neighbor's breakfast to keep me going

i don't remember ever seeing these trees with leaves... ever.


the twin peaks, i like to call them. notice the incline sign... yeah, it dips and then rises again. i used to run these two hills for speedwork before. i need to get back in shape, dammit!


there's a golf course just behind that fence (and if you look very closely, you'd see Regine Velasquez' home, too... or is it Ai Ai's?!).


I love this canopy of flowers. i love flowers. i really really do.


no, i did not walk all the way to Chile. they were widening C5 right outside my village.


i love how UP bustles with people early Early Sunday mornings.


yeah, i didn't know there was a sidewalk along university avenue. sweet!




the sun was hot hot hot! that was oasis across this humongous freeway!


yeah, i took that overpass. damn it was shaking!!


i love the entrance to the technohub. and it's always so quiet here in the mornings.


yeah, i took my baby holga with me. will post pics from it soon.


tall iced americano with 5 splendas please. and lots and lots of water.



yeah, he's wishing he was somewhere else..


in case you're wondering why the photos stop at starbucks, it's because i asked my little brother to pick me up! i couldn't take another step!

anyway, it was fun. i enjoyed the walk so much i will probably do it again this weekend. i'll probably go for a run midweek just to see if i could still do a 5k without collapsing but i'm really looking forward to the walk next sunday. hope you enjoyed your weekend boys and girls!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Companion to Retraining

as i mentioned on my alst post, i am starting from ground zero and i may have found the perfect running buddies while retraining (indoors at that because of the freaky weather changes).... a cheap pair of earphones, loud tiesto and bear grylls on the screen, sigh... hopefully he can push me onto my next 10k...

the run today was quite good too. i took a good ten minute warm up of brisk walking from the office to the gym before going into a thirty-minute solid run. yeah yeah i have been slacking, but at least i got off my fat arse to pick up training again. to cool down, i walked back to the office, cursing my stiff calves and unforgiving sandals. loved the walk though, the breeze was awesome. have a happy friday tomorrow everyone!

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Hiatus

funny how this blog has been more about taking breaks and giving up on running than it is actually about running. actually it isnt that funny. i have been away since my last 10k in MARCH and havent been running seriously since. there is still the casual run every now and then but i have missed my daily runs. at the most, i run at most 3 times a week now. but that is about to change. i am forcing myself to register for Botak's next 10k challenge in august. something that i hope would get me out of this crippling lethargy. i,ll let you know how the training goes...

p.s. the sweets and nuts aren't helping either. gaaaahhh

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Of Support, Moral and Otherwise

This, I’m sure, is a very common concern among women runners. I am talking of the physical type of support. I guess just like male athletes, women runners also need all the help they can get in the support department. however, it is my firm belief that most sports bras were made for those who do not really require much support. If you are like me, who is—well, “problematic” on top, you know what I am talking about. In order to run properly, I require two sports bras… three if I have the monthlies. And this is all just so I wouldn’t bounce all over the place. I find that this is also necessary to prevent the pains around the chest and upper back area after running. Also, breast movement during running in the wrong bra will damage the breast’s outer skin and connective tissue – the Cooper’s ligaments – permanently --- an extremely horrifying thought, amplified by my zealous imagination of breasts sweeping across the floor as I walk.

Most bras available in the market do not offer enough—well, for the lack of a better term—“bondage”. Or maybe I should actually call it “bandage”, because as a kid, I remember this was the best way of making the girls stay in place and out of the way. Someone actually did suggest that I could tape the girls up, but visions of rolls and rolls of sticky packaging tapes revolted me so I decided to stick to my two-or-three-bras routine. It gets the job done, albeit really wasteful of detergent and water come laundry time.

There is a rather promising line of sports bras offered by CW-X, makers of athletic undergarments that offers mesh webbing and a Targeted Support System that promises to give support even for the bigger cup sizes. Unfortunately, this one is not available in the local market so it seems I have to order them online or get my brother… my BROTHER, to buy me my bras in Canada. And they do not exactly come cheap, too, at 60 to 70 USD a pop. Think I’ll have to stick to my two bras in the meantime.

On to support of the moral kind, I am extremely grateful to my aunt in Toronto, who is also an avid runner for always being so supportive as I make my way to becoming a real runner. She’s been extremely encouraging from my first 5k to my most recent 10k this month. i told her of my training plans for my first 21k and she promptly sent me her 21k running manual from the running room. Thanks Tita N! goal is to get my first 21k by October of this year. Yeah yeah, over 8 months in training I know, but bite me. I will run at my own pace and enjoy the route to that 21stK.

Happy running everyone!

Friday, February 20, 2009

Words

"Running is a big question mark that's there each and every day. It asks you, 'Are you going to be a wimp, or are you going to be strong today?'"

—Peter Maher, two-time Olympic marathoner from Canada


after my run today, i'd have to say i was a big time wimp!ha... letting little cramps on my shin stop me from finishing my 7k.... total wuss!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Cause for Celebration

this may come a month late, but i like to think it's still valid. february 1st of last year, i was released from the hospital after suffering an ultra mini stroke with strict orders of taking it easy. it came as a huge wake up call on my part, forcing me to take a long hard look on the way i lived. i decided i liked living, so i made changes to make sure i'd go on living for the next 60 (hopefully) years. as part of these changes, i discovered running.

i am a newbie, having begun this love affair with running only in july of last year. it has been tempestuous at best, enough to drive me crazy at times but addicting enough to make me want more and more. like a jealous lover, running has etched itself into my head.

so it began with 5Ks and daily runs. i would look forward to the daily runs, trying to see just how well or worse i will do on a particular day. but i was not satisfied. i craved more.

so today, i power ran. i was at the Mall of Asia at 6 am, to join other infatuated runners, as we bid the sunrise hello on the land of sunsets. there was also one major difference in my race today. i joined the 10K.

as i took my place on the starting line, doubts rose within me, knowing full well i did not train as hard as i wanted for this run. i was pretty sure i would not finish the course. i was pretty sure i would end up walking even before i hit the 7th kilometre.

miracle of miracles, i actually finished the race! coming in at exactly 70 minutes, i felt it was a pretty decent time, too. definitely sticking to the 10k plan!

i will be running two more 10Ks with a two week interval. my goal for the next two 10Ks is to still finish the course with a solid run and maybe, JUST maybe, decrease my time by a tiny bit. definitely a great way to start summer i have to say :) who knows, maybe the 21K is lurking just around the corner... until then i'll just have to keep on running :)

Monday, February 9, 2009

pushing myself

i have done something a little bit crazy... i went and registered for a 10k this sunday. its time i pushed myself. i have been running 5ks and 7ks and frankly, those may have just lost their steam for a bit. so yes, i am stretching myself to the full 10k. no particular time for me, just looking to finish the the course. i'll let you all how it goes :)

Saturday, January 10, 2009

holiday crash

i was hopeful that the holidays would allow me to train more. however, since i was away in china on vacation, training became the last thing on my mind.

not being exposed to winter weather, i had high dreams of training in winter during my break. of course, all thoughts of running outdoors disappeared the first time i was hit by -9 degree weather right smack in the face. so i confined my running indoors.

it was a good thing my friend had a treadmill in her home and she also got me a ten-day free session at her local gym. at least that allowed me to keep running, albeit at a slower pace due to a myriad of reasons. first off was this blasted left knee that has been bugging me since november. there is pain during my first few steps and when i go down any stairs. it's not constantly there, but it comes and goes often enough to bug the daylights out of me.

second off the excuse list was the sightseeing i wanted to do. it was my first time to see beijing and tianjin, and i wanted to squeeze in as much activities as i could. of course all of this came at a price. waiting for cabs in sub zero temps and foregoing running sessions at the heated gym but it was worth it.

at least until i got home and took my first run back last night.

my entire timing was off, my legs felt like lead and i could barely finish my 5k run. in the end, i ended up walking and running. i knew there was hell to pay for that turkey-sheperd's pie-brownies-mcdonald's-and-yam binge during my vacation. the good news though is i was able to run without much pain on my left knee (and without my trusty knee support) for the first time in almost two months.

so there. my intended holiday crash training became simply a holiday crash. i'm not complaining. i had a blast during my vacation. but fun days are over. time to regain what i lost during the break. that's just how it goes, i guess. you train and rest and train again. like what my battered old Nike baseball cap says, "there is no finish line". i just need to keep on running.

welcome back everyone! happy training!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Getting back my groove

Feeling better today. Ran 7k without any pain last night. Well, maybe a little pain, but nothing more than your normal wear and tear. Only drawback was that it was indoors again.

 However, I discovered yet another great motivation for staying on the treadmill longer. Narcissistic bi*ch that I was, I found great motivation in the smooth shiny window right in front of the treadmill. Of course I wasn’t after the breathtaking view of the metro. I was after my reflection. Actually, any shiny surface that would reflect myself back during my most determined moment would definitely do for me.

 There I was, running and running at a slightly more challenging pace, watching my expression change, ever on the lookout for the faltering knee, making sure I wasn’t leaving my fat arse behind, singing (out of tune of course) silently with kylie minogue (perfect song to pick up that pace would be Disco Down). And it felt good. Nutrition played an important part in my good run yesterday. I have finally accepted that if I want to keep running, I have to forego some of my greatest loves in this lifetime: chips, sugar, and anything that has a slightly higher percentage of fat. Yes sir, it’s a great sacrifice but tough love demands that I give up my long standing affair with chocolates. At least on running days anyway.

 I also realized that coffee does not affect the way I run. I make sure to start with an empty bladder but caffeinated drinks do not really affect my hydration level. Of course I have to keep testing this as I increase my pace and mileage, but so far so good. Huge relief of course since I have limited my vices to that one cup (or five) of happiness that comes with splenda.

 Continuing on with the realizations, I have come to terms with the fact that I cannot run when on the verge of complete emotional breakdown. Ok, ok, I’m being dramatic here. Let me rephrase. I realized I cannot run when I am out of sorts emotionally. To me, it is the same as actually being down with a cold. Just like a respiratory infection, I need to find another avenue for physical activity when my heart is restless. But only for the first day. At any sign of feeling a tad bit better, it is time to lace up my overused (and unappreciated) addidas and hop on the treadmill. Which is exactly what I did yesterday. I wasn’t a hundred percent over the hump (resolution of the melodrama—which turned out to be nothing but needless fretting on my part, came later in the evening), but I started running just to beat the poor performance of the other day. Nothing beats being in constant competition with yourself.

yoguh

I swore to myself that Sundays would be my long days, keeping it within the 8-10k range. However, I have yet to keep to this goal. So far, I have been running a consistent 6.6 k every Sunday, just a 10% increase over my normal runs, and with recent events, my mileage per week have dropped.

I made an effort, however to get back into outdoor running yesterday and I have to admit I was disappointed. An important lesson I learned was that I could not run properly with a heavy heart. No amount of motivation could make me finish the 7k mark. Too many thoughts swimming in my head made it almost impossible to keep running. By the fifth kilometer, I was sluggishly making my way back to the car. I made up for it by doing yoga at home and much to my surprise, my mood picked up.

I literally felt my apprehensions slowly lift away from me with every deep breath I took with the yoga poses. I emptied my mind of all negative thoughts and just let it rest for an hour. I felt pristine afterwards, unpolluted by the negative thought energies that were hounding me throughout the day. I ended the workout with an excerpt from the book I was reading: the Tibetan Art of Positive Thinking:
Success is not an ultimate conclusion in itself but the result of a series of steps made possible by creative thought. Success comes about through thinking it into action…. You need belief in your ambition and not to fear the possibility of failure. Your life must change in order to be successful.
Somehow this passage seemed so apt for such a thought polluted day.

Friday, November 21, 2008

The Lance Plan


Got this off Runner's World. enjoy!

The Lance Plan
He's running strong, and aiming for (another) PR -- this time at Boston. And his coach has a few things to teach you about marathon training.
By Chris Carmichael


By Chris Carmichael

When legendary marathoner Alberto Salazar advises you to slow down during the first six miles of the New York City Marathon, you should probably listen to him. But in 2006, during his first marathon after retiring from professional cycling, Lance Armstrong charged forward anyway--and started paying for his bravado at mile 16. He still finished in 2:59, but the race gave him a heavy beating and served as a reminder that a cycling legacy and an off-the-charts VO2 max don't give you a free pass in all endurance events.

Two years and another marathon later (NYC 2007, 2:46), Lance has set ambitious goals: to run his first Boston Marathon this April in the mid-2:40s and New York again in November in the low 2:30s. He knows that while he may be a seven-time Tour de France champ, these days he has more in common with every other busy 36-year-old father of three. So in order to achieve his goals, Lance has gotten more focused and is following the principles outlined below.

Quality Matters

When Lance began running, his aerobic system was more powerful than his muscles and joints. At first he ran only three to five miles three times a week; his longest run before his first marathon was 13 miles. Now with two years and two marathons on his legs, his body is better prepared to handle the miles and speedwork necessary to improve his race times.

Be like Lance: If your goal is a fast race, do at least one, but ideally two, fast-paced runs a week. For half and full marathoners, the most effective workout is tempo intervals: two to four 10- to 12-minute repeats at 10-K to half-marathon race pace with five to six minutes of easy running in between. These prolonged periods at a hard but sustainable intensity train your aerobic and muscular systems to run faster or longer before fatiguing.

Long Runs Every Other Week

Running long on alternate weekends works for Lance for the same reason it makes sense for the rest of us: injury prevention and scheduling sanity. By doing long miles every other week, you can increase the recovery time between all of your hard efforts, which will improve the quality of both the long runs and the fast-paced workouts between them.

Be like Lance: On alternate weekends, do long workouts that are hard to fit in during the week, course-specific sessions such as hills, or race-pace miles. Before Boston, Lance usually opts for a long ride when he isn't running long, but for his buildup to NYC, he'll do five two-mile repeats at 5:42 pace (race pace for a 2:30 marathon) with a half-mile recovery jog.

Consistent Training

Training used to be Lance's job. Now, his kids and his work (the Lance Armstrong Foundation) are higher priorities, as they are for most of us. But Lance knows that training consistently is essential, even if it means adapting his workouts.

Be like Lance: When you're running low on time, a short run is better than no run, but up the intensity. For a fast, efficient workout, after a good warmup insert six to eight strides, run a few fartlek intervals, or do four to 10 two-minute repeats with one-minute recovery.
Stay Lean

After retiring from cycling, Lance strength- trained five days a week and packed on 15 pounds (remember those pics of him with Matthew McConaughey?). That weight made his first marathon even harder, so for his second race, he stripped off 10 pounds by cutting back on his strength work and his calorie intake. Lance plans to show up at the 2008 NYC Marathon at about 165, around eight pounds lighter than last year.

Be like Lance: Being lighter saves a runner tons of energy, but be careful not to cut calories too severely. You need a caloric deficit of 350 to 500 per day to lose a pound a week, but you also need to consume enough energy to support your workouts. To achieve both goals, focus on pre-, mid-, and postworkout nutrition to optimally support your training, but reduce portion sizes and eliminate snacks at other times of the day.

Maintain Fitness

During Lance's Tour de France years, he never let his cycling fitness drop by more than 10 to 12 percent because it would have been too difficult to regain any more than that. But after his first marathon, injuries and lack of motivation meant he lost the majority of his racing fitness. To avoid the same scenario this year, Lance was back to running three or four times a week after finishing the 2007 marathon, which gave him a solid base for his 2008 training.

Be like Lance: If you're targeting more than one race this season, focus on recovery after your first event so you can get back to training two weeks after a 5-K or 10-K and four weeks after a half or full marathon. Do light, low-impact exercise, such as swimming or cycling, in the days after the race; even 15 minutes will get the blood flowing, which speeds recovery.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Running Feat

every novice runner have big dreams of finishing their first 40k, me included. i know i am a long long way from running my first full marathon, but i have been enjoying running for the past three months or so, and have finished several 5ks. i am slowly making my way to the 10k mark, hopefully running my first 10k by February. doesn't sound like much i know, but for a girl who had a scare early on this year, i would have to say good job, Pia. 

anyway, i don't claim to be an expert, but like any lawyer tackling on a new project, i did my research. i'd be posting articles and what-nots on this journal, as well as tales of my mistakes, missteps and triumphs as i train and train and train in order to finally call myself a runner.

oh, and thanks to grace for inspiring me to put up this journal :)